This is the motto I have been working (or not working) under since arriving in SoCal. It hasn't exactly produced results. Job hunting really stinks. (And so do my shoes, I am realizing as I sit here in a coffee shop...I'll keep them on.) I have begun to realize what a blessing it is to have a full-time job with benefits. I miss the stability of it.
I could find a part-time minimum wage job (McDonalds, Wal-Mart, etc.) here, but it would not be enough to pay my expenses. Sheesh! I don't know.
I am facing a couple of big decisions lately. Do I stay out here, strain my financial resources even more than I have in the past three months, or do I head back to MN with my tail between my legs and look for something there while staying with friends and family? I know I would have a slightly easier time finding something in Minnesota, simply because my degree and teaching license means something there, whereas here it doesn't help me one bit. I am pretty sure I could even find a full-time position somewhere for the fall, but then, what about Martin?
As the countdown begins for me to move out of Edna's house (two weeks), I am finding myself in a bit of a pinch.
I think this pinch has been the source of recent stomach problems that reduced me to eating chicken broth and oatmeal for a few days. Not fun.
I am determined to stay positive about it all, but feel like I have the hint of a dark cloud over my head at the moment. My mood is cheerful and chipper...and I am surprisingly relaxed about most of it. Especially that I have this marathon coming up--that helps a lot.
I feel bad that my problems have started to cause Martin to stress. I think he feels a responsibility to do really really well to help me out. I wish it weren't that way. I know that I am far from the only one with these problems...sorry to burden y'all.
On another note, I have applied for a couple of jobs in Ecuador! My dream of fluency in Spanish just might come true. The job with the most potential is in Quito and has a 3-month minimum contract. The pay isn't awesome, but at least I wouldn't be losing money like I am here in California. Then it's off to Buenos Aires in July for my much anticipated trip with Kara. Traveling costs just about the same as what I pay to live here, so I might as well, right?
2 comments:
Hey B, So sorry you're not feeling well and that this is all causing you stress! I'll be praying for wisdom for you and peace. And you know you always have a place in KS! :-)
Hang in there pal! I know things will work out as they should.
And if you do move back here, it would be a treat for everyone who thinks you are so awesome! :)
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